Saying Goodbye to 3reef.........................

{Nano}Reefer · 05-13-2009, 09:57 PM

Well, most of you probably remember me.... hopefully. Not many people know this and I do not want to announce the whole thing publicly, but my step-mom gave me a bump to the head a while back. I went in for an MRI about a week after to check everything out and they find a small tumor. Then they dug deeper to find cancer(they said not 100% sure) spreading throughout my body, which has been the cause of my weight loss recently..... Going in for surgery in the next few weeks to take care of it, they gave me a 70% chance of survival, I was happy about that. They said the tumor was the lessor of the two "evils" because they are not sure what type of cancer it is or even if it is cancer... So I guess this is my goodbye to everybody, thanks for everything 3reef. the tank is suffering the most, hard to deal with my emotions(and everyone else's) and stay on top of water changes and whatnot...

Enjoy the time you have on this planet, because the next thing you know your time might be up. Forgive me for everything I have done, anyone who I have hurt, anyone I made upset, it was not my intention.

Caroline's Spine - Wallflower(acoustic)

I could have died,
Maybe i should have died.
When i saw you walk inside.
And as you shut the door
I put my eyes back on the floor.
When all i really wanted was to look some more.

Does a wallflower play,
Or does a wallflower stay on his wall?

You see i live alone,
But i've made my happy home.
All my furniture is centered around my phone.
I'm waiting for the call,
My imaginary friends and all.
Those who would never let me be taken by the fall.
Does a wallflower know,
When it's time he outgrow his wall?
Tell me does a wallflower know
When it's about time he outgrow his wall...
Yeah his wall....

Time and time and time and time and time and only time has feeling for me.
Maybe, maybe father time will feel sorry for me.
I knew, i knew where there was time, when i knew it all.
Why don't i ever leave my wall?
Why don't i ever leave my wall?
Why don't i ever leave my wall?
...please don't ever leave my wall, my wall.

You know that siren's getting louder,
And these people are starting to crowd in on me.
(all i smell and taste is garlic and gunpowder)
'cause i shot the bad guy dead -
But he got me in the head.
Oh with the girl of my dreams
She's mentioning to me how much I've bled.

Where do the wallflower go,
When their flowers get pulled from this wall?
Oh and though she says I'm brave and bold,
She knows a flower cannot hold up a wall.
I can't hold up this wall any longer...
No any longer
'cause all I have is time and time
And time
My only friend, time and time,please some more time.
I think i'm over, I think I'm over, I think I'm over...

Sorry.... but I love that song, Peace

m_hsiao · 05-13-2009, 10:00 PM

good luck with everything buddy, i hope all turns out well.. we're going to miss you
k+ be brave!

sostoudt · 05-13-2009, 10:01 PM

that horrible man, i have a friend that goes to my college that has cancer of the lymphnodes(lymphoma i think).

hopefully its just a lipoma. any way i hope your ok and check my karma comment.

PackLeader · 05-13-2009, 10:02 PM

Wow Matty, I honestly don't know what to say. Call me, ANYTIME, if you need ANYTHING at all dude. Seriously, I mean that.
And I look forward to hearing from ya after your surgery

fish addict · 05-13-2009, 10:02 PM

good luck and may god be with u my friend

adam · 05-13-2009, 10:05 PM

So sorry to hear this. That is truly sad. You never know in life what is in your future. Did the bump your step mom gave you cause any of this or just a coincidence?
Adam

steve wright · 05-13-2009, 10:08 PM

Nano- I dont imagine you ever hurt anyone, you seem to decent

good luck and miracles do happen if you focus on believing in them

Steve

Daniel072 · 05-13-2009, 10:09 PM

I pray to God that I never have to pick up my balls and say anything like this. WOW. GOD BLESS!

Kirklandp · 05-13-2009, 10:10 PM

Man I am horribly sorry my best friend has cancer and they found it through his pituitary gland. He was not growing as big as we were when w ere little. My prayers to you! Ill be praying...

PharmrJohn · 05-13-2009, 10:15 PM

Dude. Wow. Sorry to hear that. Seriously. Just hang in there man. Been through the cancer thing myself. We need to talk. PM sent.

05-13-2009, 09:57 PM	#1 (permalink)
{Nano}Reefer Dragon Wrasse Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Wi Age: 23 Posts: 2,196 Skin: Mint Karma: 7230	Saying Goodbye to 3reef......................... Well, most of you probably remember me.... hopefully. Not many people know this and I do not want to announce the whole thing publicly, but my step-mom gave me a bump to the head a while back. I went in for an MRI about a week after to check everything out and they find a small tumor. Then they dug deeper to find cancer(they said not 100% sure) spreading throughout my body, which has been the cause of my weight loss recently..... Going in for surgery in the next few weeks to take care of it, they gave me a 70% chance of survival, I was happy about that. They said the tumor was the lessor of the two "evils" because they are not sure what type of cancer it is or even if it is cancer... So I guess this is my goodbye to everybody, thanks for everything 3reef. the tank is suffering the most, hard to deal with my emotions(and everyone else's) and stay on top of water changes and whatnot... Enjoy the time you have on this planet, because the next thing you know your time might be up. Forgive me for everything I have done, anyone who I have hurt, anyone I made upset, it was not my intention. Caroline's Spine - Wallflower(acoustic) I could have died, Maybe i should have died. When i saw you walk inside. And as you shut the door I put my eyes back on the floor. When all i really wanted was to look some more. Does a wallflower play, Or does a wallflower stay on his wall? You see i live alone, But i've made my happy home. All my furniture is centered around my phone. I'm waiting for the call, My imaginary friends and all. Those who would never let me be taken by the fall. Does a wallflower know, When it's time he outgrow his wall? Tell me does a wallflower know When it's about time he outgrow his wall... Yeah his wall.... Time and time and time and time and time and only time has feeling for me. Maybe, maybe father time will feel sorry for me. I knew, i knew where there was time, when i knew it all. Why don't i ever leave my wall? Why don't i ever leave my wall? Why don't i ever leave my wall? ...please don't ever leave my wall, my wall. You know that siren's getting louder, And these people are starting to crowd in on me. (all i smell and taste is garlic and gunpowder) 'cause i shot the bad guy dead - But he got me in the head. Oh with the girl of my dreams She's mentioning to me how much I've bled. Where do the wallflower go, When their flowers get pulled from this wall? Oh and though she says I'm brave and bold, She knows a flower cannot hold up a wall. I can't hold up this wall any longer... No any longer 'cause all I have is time and time And time My only friend, time and time,please some more time. I think i'm over, I think I'm over, I think I'm over... Sorry.... but I love that song, Peace

05-13-2009, 10:00 PM	#2 (permalink)
m_hsiao Purple Spiny Lobster Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 457 Skin: Mint Karma: 2169	good luck with everything buddy, i hope all turns out well.. we're going to miss you k+ be brave! _________ 75G Reef Tank: Equipment: 4x54W T5 HO, Octopus Skimmer, HOB Refugium, 1 Koralia 4, 1 Koralia 3, 3 Koralia 1, 1 Koralia 2, 125+ #s Indonesia LR Fish: 2 Occellaris, Blue Tang, Tomini Tang, Blue Angel, Lineatus Blenny, Chromis, Hi-Fin Goby, Neon Goby, 6-Line Wrasse

05-13-2009, 10:01 PM	#3 (permalink)
sostoudt Giant Squid Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Chesterfield, VA Age: 23 Posts: 3,685 Skin: Mint Karma: 10665	that horrible man, i have a friend that goes to my college that has cancer of the lymphnodes(lymphoma i think). hopefully its just a lipoma. any way i hope your ok and check my karma comment. _________ JUST LOOK AROUND YOU

05-13-2009, 10:02 PM	#4 (permalink)
PackLeader Giant Squid Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Reno, NV Age: 27 Posts: 5,450 Skin: Mint Karma: 50921	Wow Matty, I honestly don't know what to say. Call me, ANYTIME, if you need ANYTHING at all dude. Seriously, I mean that. And I look forward to hearing from ya after your surgery _________ Jason 200 gallon long reef: 55 gallon sump, 20 long fuge, 300+ pounds LR, 750W MH, 216W T5, ASM G4+ skimmer, reactors, wavemaker, etc Hippo tang, O clown pair, firefish, starry blenny, YT damsel, BJ trigger, Scopas tang, chromis. Too many corals and inverts to list. http://www.3reef.com/forums/show-off...-60554-19.html [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]

05-13-2009, 10:05 PM	#6 (permalink)
adam Millepora Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: North Wales PA Age: 38 Posts: 945 Skin: Mint Karma: 1021	So sorry to hear this. That is truly sad. You never know in life what is in your future. Did the bump your step mom gave you cause any of this or just a coincidence? Adam _________ [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]46 Gallon Bow mixed sps, lps, softies, zoanthid and mushroom reef with 35 corals total, purple serpent star, peppermint shrimp, emerald crab, various blue legged crabs and astrea snails. Fish - Solarensis Wrasse, Oscellaris Clownfish, Bicolor Blenny, Green Spotted Mandarin. 65 lbs of LR and 10lbs of LS. 2 x 150 watts 14,000K Phoenix bulbs Sunpod HQI. Aqua C Remora Skimmer, 3 Hydor Koralia 1's & 1 Koralia Nano

05-13-2009, 10:02 PM	#5 (permalink)
fish addict Fire Worm Join Date: May 2009 Location: orange county ca Posts: 174 Skin: Mint Karma: 879	good luck and may god be with u my friend

05-13-2009, 10:08 PM	#7 (permalink)
steve wright 3reef Moderator Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: shenzhen Guangdong PRC Age: 45 Posts: 5,061 Skin: Mint Karma: 108188	Nano- I dont imagine you ever hurt anyone, you seem to decent good luck and miracles do happen if you focus on believing in them Steve

05-13-2009, 10:09 PM	#8 (permalink)
Daniel072 Tang Whisperer=) Join Date: May 2008 Posts: 2,140 Skin: Mint Karma: 16723	I pray to God that I never have to pick up my balls and say anything like this. WOW. GOD BLESS! _________ 150 gallon mixed reef, 2 x 400watt mh lighting. Flow comes from a mixture of koralias and seios. Fish - Purple tang, yellow tang, leutenant tang, flame hawk, purple stripe pseudochromis, pink spot watchman goby and green mandarin. Coral - ORA Red Planet, ORA Purple Cap, ORA Stuber Stag, ORA Joe the Coral, ORA Hawkins Echinata, ORA Orange Cap, ORA Bird of Paradise, Tyree LE Sunset Montipora, Superman Danae, ORA Green Birdsnest, Several Others

05-13-2009, 10:10 PM	#9 (permalink)
Kirklandp Coral Banded Shrimp Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: Millry Al Posts: 363 Skin: Mint Karma: 2946	Man I am horribly sorry my best friend has cancer and they found it through his pituitary gland. He was not growing as big as we were when w ere little. My prayers to you! Ill be praying... _________ 5.5 DT, HOB 30 filter, Coralife Mini Aqualight, 120 gph powerhead, 8lbs live sand, 10lbs live rock 3 Kenya tree frags, 2 metallic mushrooms, 1 green hairy mushroom Mantis tank "Rover" 20g tall hob 75 filter, Oddysea HO PC with lunars 25 lbs live sand, 40 lbs live rock hairy mushroom, xenia rock. 10 gallon build 55 FOWLR

05-13-2009, 10:15 PM	#10 (permalink)
PharmrJohn Giant Squid Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Shelton, Washington Age: 46 Posts: 4,595 Skin: Mint Karma: 25954	Dude. Wow. Sorry to hear that. Seriously. Just hang in there man. Been through the cancer thing myself. We need to talk. PM sent. _________ 90g HW: 20g Sump/Fuge, ETSS PSw/Mag9.5, CPR OF/Rio 2100 RTN, 3K3 1K4 PH's(4200GPH ttl flow), 300W htr, Gnd Prb, Denitrator, Tek 8x54W T5. Fish: Hippo Tang, Hmbg, Y-T, Ylw dmsls, Coral Beauty, 8 Line Wrasse. Inverts: HC, CBS, P-mnt shrmp x2, Sandstar, Sea Apple. CUC: 130 D. Crth/35 F. Crth/30 Lg Nrts/25 Vibex/4 Turbos Corals: Frgspwn x2, Kenya Tree, Doughnut Coral, GSP, Zoas x2, Shroom rocks x2, Lobo Brain, Turbinaria, Mshrm Lthr, Fngr Lthr Other: 145# LR, 1-2" LS DOB 5/7/08 [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]